I'm feeling a bit like Reese Witherspoon in Sweet Home Alabama today. You know that part when she says something about loving New York City but when she goes back home to Alabama "this fits too."
I spent the weekend up in Wisconsin on my friend's boat. Small towns, simple pleasures, lots of nature to take in and I caught myself thinking... what am I doing in the city? When all I really want out of life is a house, a dog, some trees and family... what am I doing in the city where none of those things are easy to come by?
But then I returned to the city and I take in the awesome skyline, the ease of having pretty much any activity at my fingertip and the less small-mindedness of the people and I get confused.
I think in part I'm in the city because I can't imagine finding someone with similar beliefs in the smaller towns. But, the truth is I'm not having much luck finding anyone with my beliefs and my love of the country in the city.
And then I think, what am I waiting for? I should move towards what I want out of life and the rest will fall into place when it falls into place. But it's a scary prospect to consider leaving a good paying job that I enjoy, my friends, my ease of travel to visit family, the city that I know....
There's probably plenty of middle ground (suburbs for example) where I could have a house and a dog and not be so far removed from life as I know it. But then there's that concern about being further away from the single-life of the city. Oh yeah, and the commute!
One of these days I hope to figure this all out. Maybe this is just another phase in the the Quarter Life Crisis. Meanwhile if any of you have any suggestions - feel free to throw them my way! Until then I'll just try to keep enjoying both worlds! :-)
1 comment:
Ingrid,
I think that we all have moments of "the grass (must be) greener" whether it be in the country...suburbs...city. I think that you are right to move toward what you ultimately want while really appreciating what you have right now.
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