Man, have I been through a lot of emotions in the last 2 weeks. And they're still fluxing a little too quickly for me to say if this is how I will feel in a few hours. But I do feel like I've learned a few things about myself.
1) I am capable of falling for a guy. I was starting to wonder if that was really in my makeup.
2) Likewise, I am capable of having my heart broken by said guy.
3) My expectations of how much I can control my emotions are MUCH too high. My head knows a lot of answers, but my heart rarely listens.
4) I'm learning I may have to do things the hard way in order to deal with them and get to the other side. Even though it can hurt, it's just not in my makeup to remove myself from a problem rather than fighting through it.
5) My friends and family are a great support system, even if they are always worried they don't know the right thing to say.
6) It is totally possible to feel hurt, sad, mad, jealous, and sorry for the person you feel all these other things about at the same time.
7) I'm scared of being sad. And I fight it tooth and nail when I feel it. I need to learn to just let myself be sad sometimes.
8) I've learned my office is great at allowing you to do what you need to do and finding ways to still keep things moving forward.
9) I need to spend at least one night a week by myself. I need that time to get back in touch with myself and take care of my things.
10) It's important for me to focus on the here-and-now because I want to be happy now, not just once I reach the thing that I think will make me happy. That being said, I do need to plan activities for the near future that I can look forward to.
So that's some of the knowledge I've gained over the past few days. Some I already kind of knew and some are completely new to me.
And now, I'm going to head over to kickball practice and try out some of that "doing things the hard way" stuff.
1 comment:
That's a pretty insightful list. I think it's good to do a personal inventory every once in a while.
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